What do you tell yourself, when you realize that you go about your whole life, thinking that you do good, thinking that you actually make a difference in the things that you do, thinking that you’re actually a good person, but you’re not. The whole time, that problem was you. Yourself.. you are what needs fixing, not your friends, or your family, or others that you love, it’s you… You are the problem. You realize that you have wasted years, emotions, love, hope, and everything that you thought that has made you, is nothing. You find yourself to be nothing.. When you realize that the person you actually loved, the one who knew you for what you were worth, is better off without you, happier even, the one that you let get away is only gone, because you did it to yourself, and then years later you want to love; you want to be in love, but the person you forced yourself to love, is now in love with you, the moment you realize that you forced yourself into love. Are you happy anymore? Are you even a person anymore because how can someone be a person, if they have done nothing for themselves but destroy, and hurt, and hide… Your life becomes nothing, plain to the eye. What do you even do now..
